i always love you

i love you..i love you so much. its so hard to figure it all out. my heart is confused. i dont want to make a mistake and hurt you. thats always been my worst fear. is hurting you. you were like a glass heart. and one wrong move will break you. i couldnt decide if you were my sister or more. and i still cant. and i kept you coming because i was scared to hurt you. ive always loved you but my loved changed and i was scared to tell you. and i realize now that being scared to hurt you hurt you even more. i cant help but be mad at myself, i hurt you. and i promised id never do that. but i did. and im so sorry. and do you want to know my 3 whishes? im sure u do..
1. you will realize its not ur fault and see its mine.
2. that u dont think i played with you and pretended to love you,that you know in ur heart i always love you, and the kisses meant alot.
3. i wish i could stop hurting you...
i like our new relationship though. i love it alot. i like being able to talk to you about the people i love without u getting upset. and being jealous. even if u are jealous u dont show it. and i like being able to let u in to my heart. and let u know how i feel. i love it. and i will try my hardest to never put u thru that much pain again. but we both need to realize that there is more to life and love then eachother. cuz we both know in th end it most likley wouldnt work out. in the end we will end up as sisters and thats all. being jealous now is just putting both of us through more pain. i hope u understand what im trying to say. i love you